Don't Make Me Regret. Don't Make Me Hate.

So the past week i've been ona cruise...I'm on aBoat!!! On my 10-day cruise to Alaska I had a lot of time to evaluate what my life is about and what i want. I also watched a lot of movies. To keep this short i will post about just a few movies that i watched over and over and that i liked. I absolutely loved the story of "Made of Honor" I watched it about 4 times. (it was replayed 12 times over the course of 3 days.) It's about a guy that likes a girl, but the girl wants him to be her maid of honor. She's about to get married and he...at the last minute declines maid of honor but leaves and sees a dog on the way and crashes the wedding. omg its so much sweeter than i made it sound. Heres a short clip of the BEST part of the movie. if you do not "awwww" at this, you are evil:

Gosh that is so cool. just those 2 lines *sigh xP
And i also..dare i say it...i watched Twilight...4 times...yes i did. and i liked it.
the story is pretty great (i never read the book.)
Just how he hates her for her blood and the love is like omg xD (The pretense that watching Twilight makes you a Nazi zombie is false for i am not a nazi now.)
I also watched "What Women want" twice. Its about this guy that gets electrified and could read womens minds. Now how do these 3 movies tie in to my title?
Well..heres the thing..When my mind feels rejected..no matter why or if it happend or not, just when it feels rejected...i start to hate the person subconciously..
Think Edward Cullen in the beginning of Twilight. I don't want to regret, and i don't want to hate. God, this is so damn hard. I don't know what a girl wants, looks? smarts? to care? I don't wanna go through life like the Made of Honor even though the ending is oh so sweet...
Supermassive Black Hole by Muse (Twilight BaseBall Scene) (you set my soul alight.)
Leave Out All the Rest by Linkin Park (First song of Twilight Credits)

Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Decode by Paramore BEST SONG HERE YET (2nd song of Twilight End Credits)
How did we get here?
When I used to know you so well.
But how did we get here?
Well, I think I know.
Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves.

PLEASE, if you care at ALL...just click all 3 songs and watch the 1:15 minute video.
It means ALOT to me. It only takes a few minutes to show that you care.
~

Summers here people. Wash Away the Past.

Summer's here people
Realize it.
Recognize it.
You got people in shorts
And people biking down the beach
Schools out, yay
Hope we don't miss our friends too much
Let's hang out.
Goto the mall
Watch a movie
Its the time to fly!
Lets grow wings to another country
Lets not forget the games
and endless hours couching with Mr.TV
Lets hold hands on the countryside.
or watch the July 4th parade side by side.
Lets have a picnic, me and you
and not stay home, feelin' blue.
go on xfire and lets go CODding
or fight Nazis, CoHing.
I'ma miss all my senior friends.
Hope you have fun, Gerard in France.
Lets not let life pass us by.
For me, 2 summers left, my my my.
Lets play tag, I'll catch you, or
Lets just hang, and see what it do.
Don't forget storytime, books and reading too.
Sign up for the Summer Reading program too!
Who cares if its a boyfriend, girlfriend, or just friends?
Lets just hang out, before the summer ends.

Yeah, hope ya'll aint too busy with your life and business to come hang out with lil ol' me.
Ye, well up there, theres a little something to each of my friends. especially you close lil buddies. Made it for all you. Nd if you here cuz i IMed you/xfired you/called you, etc. check out my other posts.

Make your summer special cuz you never know how many you have left.
Sup TarroYoko (gerard)
Sup Brach (brach xP nub. haha)



(Thousand Foot Kruth- The Art of Breaking) I just love how the part where he says "I'll pick you up,wont let u fall, i'll build ur trust and it wont hurt at all" sounds. especialy the "it wont hurt at all" its like cool =P i like the meaning of the song too =]

As MY World Turns

I've gone from the lil' 3rd grade kid that only 3 people would hang out with to being the life of parties.
I've gone from the kid that couldnt aim with a mouse for his life to being almost good enought to join an online league to wing $800.
I've become a person people would look at and see..hmm..theres something unique about him.
Who was I?
Who am I now?
Who will I be?
God only knows?
Will I go from someone who thinks twice about even talking to a girl, not to a pimp.., but someone who can gather up his guts to ask someone nice out?
I can only hope.
What is the change people see in me?
What do people see, when they look at me?
Do they see a genius?
Do they see a retard?
Do they see a still-growing child?
or Do they see a young man?
Do they see a generous guy with much to give?
or Do they see a selfish dog?
Do they see my kindness..or do they see the hate?
Do they see an open heart, or do they see the opposite?
Do they see God in me? or.
What/Who makes my world turn? Does he? or she? or that she? or me? or Him?

Why cant anyone see. the real me? no wait. some ppl do. nvm. =P

Well i have 2 finals tomorrow. and im blogging. good luck to me. prolly shudve studied instead. but hey re-analysis of self > than big test right?...right?!!?
anyway lol and good luck on YOUR finals guys =]

AMG! 2 posts in 15 minutes! =D

=O Yes i'm posting 2 in 15 minutes. cuz this one doesnt fit with the other and i made the other one but it just needed editing..like a few days ago. anyway.
Big Days.
What?
yeah, big days.
There are always gonna be "big days" in our lives. These "big" days get significantly bigger as we grow.
Like your first day of school. BiG DaY!. Then you have pre-school graduation! It gets bigger and bigger.
Haha like how Mel has a "big" day this saturday. XD SAT's anyone?
big days arent always very positive :(
but sometimes its nice to know we have something big to look forward to in life isnt it?
like first dates, first kisses, first marriages (haha no jk, but yeah marriage), and of course that day when that white shining door opens up for us to spend eternity.
exponentially bigger.
well. anyway. yeah. haha.

Keri Hilson rocks. or pops. w/e. lol
Lets lyric. (Yes i know. this is same song, but different stanza is quoted in my other blog and "looked" at. Anyway, a nice hmm...lets use a Monty Python word (btw Melissa u ever look up those vids? xD), a very "woody" song and not "tinny" at all.

Knock You Down by Keri Hilson everyone! lol
actually...nah...i wont...
nevermind.
i try not to use backspace. why? so that what i put. is what i put. whats done is done. but yeah haha nevermind.
so since this was a 2 blog in 15 min. or a bit more cuz i went afk....read the one under this too :)

PhenoM. dAtZ bE mE.

^does the title look retarded? humph. anyway!
Phenomenon. Lets all start callin' me that.
or.
Master Tactician. hmm... Tactical Coordinator sounds nice too.
Its been a while. since. just since.

Do-Re-Mi-Fa-So-La-Ti-Do ( You got Me lost for Words, I dont know What to Say).
^ eROC - Speechless Chorus. Facebook hit. Good song.
And Cassie- Is it you
^hella old but damn its still good and gives me a nostalgic feeling.

Link below. Just cuz im listening to it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oKI-EOVZXNE
if u cant click it, highlight it then copy paste it.
So last time i posted...hmm..i think i was feeling more sad than happy?
anyway. i guess now im in a point where i dunno whether to be happy or sad. good for me. not really.
Whats still wrong?
Letsee, well the COD4 clan i wanna be in just recruited a really immature 16 year old instead of me. Minor problem? Meh i play alot of Call of Duty xD. Needless to say i was a pissed little geek for a bit.
My grades SUX. done deal.
Not much cheers me up.
games...im so good (its true) it gets boring...
hanging out...*whisper* to be honest...i dont hav many ppl to hang out wit..
i goto AHS once in a while...and i used togoto my friends house alot..but ...
homewking...who enjoys that?
pretty much throw ideas at me. like for me to do. i'll shoot em down for ya. that may be fun for 5 minutes. or so.
I hate it. hate what. being used. -.- Like yesterday's trash. Use once, or twice, then throw away. *sigh. ugh. if u gonna throw something away, dont use it in the first place. especially if its a person. great tip. -.-
hmm.
Apparently im a great tactitician..i wonder if that could be a FIRST position..
Inventor/Master Tactician. that sounds cool.
anyway ima cut it short here. just so i can see mel's comment before i goto bed. lol.
i'm gonna promise this. unless i change my mind about how my next blog will affect readers. anyway next one should be interesting and sorta revealing. =] no im not gay, carrie. xDDD anyway bye!. <- =O a Xclmation mark AND a period?

Pet Peevez (Peev - Vez.) *Beep Beep File Over-RideE.

Ho-Hum. Been longer than i usually take to blog...but a bit busy lately.
I would have put this on my "splitter" blog (private one) but iuno this pertains alot to ccs and public...
Anyway...for some reason i dont remember..in my blog notes (yes i put my blog ideas and stuff in notes on a piece of paper lol...) i put the word "shitty" on it, but dont remember why now..and then i wrote next to it "will only go into 4 things but in depth." so i guess that means i will write about only 4 hate/peeves. No idea how that relates to me putting "shitty" there for...anyway lets not mind that. Lets jump into the water. (Back in the Water - jesse mccartney) anyone? anyway SPLOOSH!*
Boy im gonna be pissed after writing this...(memories...)
1. Discrimminating teachers- you know the teachers that just hate.
Most people know Mr. D Han. I have a few friends that call him a *non PG word(el oh el.) He just hates. I dont even know why he hates me. Oh wait, i DO know.
Everyone knows Mrs. Carlson has favorites (this will apply in a sec.) Luckily, im one of them. Shes always tellin the class how im smart and can do stuff twice as fast..and get them right...(and that i need to show work and write less sloppily cuz ppl cant follow wat im doin) And guess what Mr.Han is always in the classroom..his office is there. So one day, Little Daniel subs for our class and we had some classwork. Well...like 5 people are asking me for help and im justhelping them. Little Daniel just comes by and starts sayin stuff like "your not so special blah blah blah" and im really just like WTF...im just helpin ppl. and omg this 1 thing already so long. I was gonna say how Mrs. Sun(mandarin) is a bad teacher too..but w/e. you get the gist of wat i hate.
2. Kids that think they're in authority. Especially if they're a real butthole about it...hey at least i get to see the real side of people...like that andrew kid...(junior..this should ring a bell..and yes carrie this is one of the 2 guys i told u to block on facebook? the dude that bought me from u on friends for sale? ye that guy.) Anyone else in ccs notice that if u talk to him he acts like hes all that but if u dont talk to him hes all quiet and just stares at stuff? haha the other day the kid was all acting like hes admin of school comps cuz i was using it and that alan go kid was buggin me so andrews just pushes me awaya nd logs off..well guess what he didnt know, im a comp maintent. kid too so in his face. xD. immaturity vs immaturity!
3. People that use: proms,formals,balls,etc. as a first date thing. Anyone else here think thats extremely shallow? seriously ive had friends that ask ppl to events as a first date. i usually tell em not too...bah half the time they dont listen. things like that are like 3rd date plus invites. Why would u ask someone that u dont even know if they like you?
4. Age discrimination (half jokingly.) K. Lets start with this. a 26 yr old talking to a 27 year old. Who here can see the difference? GOOD JOB YOU CANT. So. Why does my grade treat some freshmen different from sophs? and for soulsakes why can Mel high five juniors but not me? >=[ im pretty sure that was a joke. but its so frikkin true. ... im just gonna dot dot dot for a while. ... .... ...
seriously?
K. Now to examine our sin nature shall we?
I will say a true given fact about myself.
" I, Simon Ho, am more mature than i was 4-6 months ago, in spirit and in mind."
Now i want you ALL to comment me with a comment including this: what was your first thought when u read this? BE HONEST.
if you were thinking about chicken, say CHICKEN.
if you thought "No your not..." Then say that. <--that is our sin nature. Our first thought would normally be to contradict the given.
even though i explained it. post your thoughts. and believe me, i AM expecting a "no your not." prove me right or wrong, just be honest.
and to end...my private sig.
-=TimeSplitter [The Real Splitter]

Photoshop?

So..Melissa wnted me to blog about photoshop?
lol
either she replied to the wrong IM or..well i dunno, anyway here it is. lets start with defintion
Photo manipulation is the application of image editing techniques to photographs in order to create an illusion or deception , courtesy of google and wiki ;)

K...i havnt really used photoshop, never installed PS, and i think i only touched it once.
Yay me.
It makes pictures look good i guess. I use Picasa...pretty much the same thing..i hav some cool pix of that on my myspace(no idea wat linkto my myspace is and im too lzy to go there.)k, so hmm...mel's in yrbook so im guessin she uses it alot? dunno..
Photoshop...pictures...pictures are cool. I like pictures. They speak 1000+ words.
I like taking pictures...um...yeah.

so...anyway lol,
i was at library homework coaching, and this cute little kid (2nd grade i think) named Brandon(i think) came in and was doing his homework...and it had something to do with love and we had the HARDEST time trying to explain to a 2nd grader what love was...haha..funny stuff
but eventually one of us said "its like giving your heart to someone"
and then brandon said "why would you want to give your heart to someone?"
*sigh...
aww moment.
aww moment some more.
now.. why WOULD u giv ur heart to someone?
lol...
yeah well anyway, this short lil blog is all i have time for at the moment...gotta tell mel to comment =P

and if anyone's seen my AIM buddy info lately, ive decided most of the world isnt ready to see my other blog ;].