Some things Ive Learned

I've learned a few things in the past 2 years during different situations of my life...its obvious where they are from. Doubt you can find this on the internet, came from the top of my head as well as my AIM buddy info lol.

I'll start with the most important thing: I'm a selfish person and my priorities arent right and i really need God's help.
I learned that i've had things catered to me all my life i want things catered to me now.
I dont know what the h-e-double hockeysticks to do when i like a girl.
I need to pray.
I need to pray for God to help me lead a more selfless life. To put other first.
John 3:30 says "He must become greater; I must become less"

fewchr49er (11:45:56 PM): God must become greater

fewchr49er (11:46:01 PM): Jesus Christ must become greater

fewchr49er (11:46:06 PM): and you must decrease

fewchr49er (11:46:31 PM): He must increase, you must decrease

fewchr49er (11:47:18 PM): remember when we met up in my office...and we were talking about this all? i wanted you to realize what identity in Christ means...and how that affects your life

fewchr49er (11:48:19 PM): cuz i truly believe that when you finally believe that you are fully loved, cherished, accepted, and significant in God's eyes no matter what......then you can love others they way Christ did: selflessly and sacrificially

fewchr49er (11:49:31 PM): you don't need (****) to make you feel accepted. you don't even need me to make you feel important. somehow, some way...you've got to wholeheartedly believe that all that matters is your relationship with God.

yup. i need to be a more selfless and Godly man which is a grueling journey as i've been told.
I gots to put others first and care more about others
and not how people make me feel or what they can do for me, but how i can make them feel and what i can do for THEM.
And with friends like mine, im pretty sures i can do it.
so...who wants to come along for the journey?
(although you'll prolly never read this, ty so much toby =].)

so what else have i learned?
an important thing is people have "nice" levels. Friendly levels? dunno what im talkin bout? let me explain.
in this world there are people where if they just smile at you, then you know they are being nice or they like u, BUT there are also people where if al they do is just smile at you then you know somethings wrong.
like say there are 2 girls, ones really shy and ones really popular. If the shy girl smiles at u and just says like 6 words to u, then well wow right? but if the popular one just says 6 words and gives u asmile then its like what the...whatd i do wrong? u kno that kinda thing.
I analyze most people like this lol, like lets umm.. take an example that ahem..
lets just take
err..ashley (melissa's sister) for example lol. sorry, but this is a really good example.
shes a really friendly person that talks to her friends alot and stuff, but if shes not in the mood, or pissed or something she gives ppl a wierd smile =P iuno if any1 else notices it. she still talks to em but her smile's differnt. that kinda thing.
also people act differntly when they hear about stuff, like rumors and stuff.
someone may be really friendly and stuff but usually if they hear gossip/rumors and stuff about a person that attitude changes...its really hard to say it in words but argh...
lets try this:
person 1 talks to person 2 alot (1000 words), person 1 hears rumor/gossip, person 1 now talks to person 2 (400 words) and person 2 probably wonders wow what the () just happend?, person 1 hears more stupid stuff, now talks to person 2 even less (20 words)...that kinda thing. not the best example i know.
so the point of this i guess is watch what you all say/act around me (not like to be mature or not) but just cuz i can watch and tell people's friendly levels and i KNOW somethings wrong when it is, and i never ask cuz i want to know, its cuz i wanna see how bad it is and if they'll tell me or not :)
yes i kno this can be sort of confusing in a way, but i hope the point was gotten =P
alotta people do subtle perhaps even subconscious things to show things.
Some are more obvious than others..
like if they think you're boring, they'll leave ur conversations (this is actually more subtle though in words it doesnt look it.)
people naturally talk to other people less for a few reasons which may or may not be independent: they know something you dont, they think you know something they know, they simply dont like you, they're mad, etc.
and iuno some of these might not be true...could be me just over analyzing EVERYTHINg that EVERYONE does...iuno...just alotta things i feel are wrong and i feel like i know why but im not sure and not sure i really want to know...and everything i do..comes back to bite me hard in the face..every single thing i try to do to better my life(selfish i know...) or someone elses...

I learned i need friends i can count on...and that there are 3 main things in life that should be prioritized (as a high schooler/collge):
God, friends, grades.
I will put what the order i my life is in and how i think it should be and i encourge comments to include this as well.
Me: Friends,God,grades
What it should be: God,Friends,Grades
For a lot of people at this age though...its Grades,Friends, God...which really sucks cuz i think that if a friend needs me i should and would help them and drop all my hw and studying for them...i dunno...

meh, anyway, one more thing, i just read through my yearbooks through for like the past hour, and i find that alot of people dont mean what they say..which sucks cuz i dont like fake people...like some people say "oh your so cool" or "we should hang out more" but the next year its all different from what they say there...seriously..
i try to mean what i say at least lol.

hmm...anything else...
well what kinda guy am i?
im not:
the most athletic, the most good looking, and depending who/where u ask, im not the most popular (popularity is a bit shallow i'nt it? lol)
i AM:
smart...sorta...
fun(ny) (i try? lol)
sensitive (anyone can probably tell that if they read my blogs)
again depending on who/where u ask, im popular...but <--i dont really care bout that... i'd say "deep" but then saying it would be shallow and now that i just said it <.< though

now afterrrr reading all this and if anyone has any questions, advice, tips, need guidance?
i could tell you anything from how love is different from just chemicals in your brain to why porn is bad for your health, to what i think about time-space continuum to my thoughts on suicide. =D

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